Ice Cream for breakfast

As many of you know I am constantly fighting the battle of the bulge. I have been doing remarkably well, that is until the past two days.....

As a thirtysomething woman, my hormones seem to be in full swing and currently working against me.

Last week, while swimming laps in the YMCA pool, I noticed how tender my breasts were. I wrote it off as a side effect of being relatively new to excercise. Then came the tell tale hormone headache that I get this time every month. Finally, out of nowhere, I craved ICE CREAM FOR BREAKFAST!!!!

Ice cream for breakfast is NEVER a good idea, it leaves me feeling like hell for the rest of the day... but today the hormones won the battle.... hopefully I will win the war!

Please keep me in your prayers. I need all of the strength and encouragement that I can get, as I am battle the beast of obesity.

Namaste!

photo credit: QT Luong (source terragalleria.com)

SOS SOS I see the light on the horizon

Is it possible to live your whole life slightly less than content?

I have a lovely daughter, a secure job (if that is even possible today) and so far I have my health. But still, still, still, I look to the horizon. Like a castaway on an island so far from land...I look, I think I see the blinking light of a saviour ship, and I swim..... just when I reach the break, the highest, strongest, roughest waves, I let the first few beat me down, then I turn back to the safety of the island that I have known for sooooooo long. I know the nooks and crannies of my island, I know the coconuts, the palms, the banyans... and it is a beautiful place, an amazing place, but it is lonely and I wonder about the blinking ship. I want the blinking ship...how do I reach it? How do I get past the break??? How do I trust in my own self enough to make it through the rough tide? AND am I scared to death where the ship will take me...???? of course I am!

I am too young for a mid-life crisis, and too old for a quarter-life crisis... what gives.. does anyone else ever come up for a breath and think...WTF, is this it?

I will keep you posted on my journey... for now I am just practicing the swimming and working on holding my breath a little longer every day... training for the voyage...