what's turns you on?

I pose the age old question of "what turns you on?", after watching Vickie Christina Barcelona. In the movie Christina has no idea what she wants or what turns her on... when pressed she cannot reply... all she know is what she doesn't want.

I pondered on this as I watched through the eyes of the Movie columnist that I "should" have been. How easy it is for us to focus on what we don't want, giving soooooo much power to that...

I want a simple life, with simple pleasures... a completely sensual existence.. with delicious smells, sounds, sights, feelings... SENSUAL... not to be confused with SEXUAL. Don't get me wrong that too, has a place in the ideal, but sex is easy. But to be stimulated on many different levels is rather challenging.

My turn ons are :
great light
great wine
even a mediocre massage
a man's cologne... (careful guys don't over do this one)
intellect
a man who is well read
a man who can and DOES cook
openness to the whole concept of faith and serendipity
kindness
skin
appreciation of the arts
travelling
confidence without cockiness
good oral hygiene
waking up early
eating fresh foods
preserving the world around us... even just a bit
the perfect vodka martini
palindromes
ect ect ect ect

everyone's list is different, but be perfectly clear in what you do want, not just what you don't. I believe that Eckhart Tolle is right in that the Universe is receptive to your energy and that it does not understand the "negative intention"... in other words you can't go around thinking "I don't want to be fat", or "I do not want to date idiots"... or you will foster fatness and idiots...because the whole negative is disregarded. You reap what you sow.

God told Adam to "sow, cultivate and protect"... how much of this do we do intrinsically?

So I am writing this blog as a reminder of what I do want.... please let him show up before I am too old to enjoy it!

Namaste!

Approximately 25,000 Sunrises

I was watching tv this morning and saw a commercial that said we all have apporximately 25,000 sunrises in our lifetimes. This was interesting information for me, as I am very analytical in typical virgo fashion. I like the black and white, cold facts type of girl...

25,000 sunrises ...hmmm

This sunrise was very dreary here in the Florida panhandle... lots of clouds followed by subsequent torrential rain. There came a break in the rain around 2:00pm, so I took out the 4 dogs that make up my pack... then noticed that there were several cars at my neighbors house. Cars that I have only noticed in the past 3 weeks coming and going, but never all there at the same time... then I further noticed that the American flag that they proudly display was at half-mass. I concluded that this must have been his 25,000 sunrise.. or sunset as this case may be.

I am sooooo grateful on this day for my sunrise... even if it were so yucky outside. I am so glad to be alive. I have spent many many days in the shadows letting this life pass me by. For those of you that know me, you know that I have just in the past 2 weeks decided to grab the reins of my life. I let myself go over the past 7 years. I think that it started when I was abandoned by shitty boyfriend while I was pregnant, then he became even shittier father. Enter in a few tradgic relationships with men that I really did not want.... days became months became years... and thank God that my sunrises did not abruptly end during this time. I want to live Live LIve LIVe LIVE!!!! I want to keep my eye on the prize... the life and love that I hope the universe sends me.. I am really really putting in the work... I hope to reap the benefits.

I have not done the math to find out what number sunrise I am on, but I suspect that I have a lot more ahead of me.

Thank you for reading... Jules

i am new to this site

I hope that this blog page generates some readers.. I am getting some traffic on my myspace blog. I mean, this blogging thing is totally for me, but there is some narsistic part that enjoys knowing that someone somewhere is reading what I have to say. Also, I need to find some blogs to subscribe to, so if you are out there blogging, let me know... I will read!

Thank you Gerrie

Thanks to Gerrie, my half sister, for the time she took to link me to this Blogger site. I look forward to posting like crazy, as I am always jotting stuff down. Until next time..... Happy Easter!